Infatuation

Emptiness felt, what shall I do?
Changed self, re-invent me anew
But somehow still lacking something
Deep thoughts dwelt in head, bothering

"ALAS! Finally, hear me plea!"
Cried Inspiration inside me
"You need a female to adore
Sweet nothings dealt to 'mi amor' "

"Stop it!" Shouts Logic, then he said:
"Get rid of that thought in your head
You have more important things sire
'fore chasing the one you admire"

"Hear me out please!" He shunned Logic
"You need a purpose, not magic
Liking a girl fuels passion,
Without it brings inhibition"

"OH Please.... Do you think that's right?
Why must master be of lost sight?
Of all things he treats essential
Nothing else is more than special"

"Oh what good is that, if not be
Ideas as deep as the sea
Imaginations' come of it
A won'drous gal as he deems fit"

Logic replied, quick to retort:
"You will just have him to abort
All things we've started doing now
Will end up like dung of a cow"

Finally, skirmish had ended
Somehow the two went, well-blended
Having a crush is not all bad
Like forging smiles when you're sad

Like you, a well-lit oiled machine
Her: High-performance gasoline
Together, makes you go further
Building future's a bit brighter

Now reaching realization
Logic and Imagination
With a hint of Inspiration
Would start from Infatuation

Only One

Ever since the first time I saw
You being productive and kind
You offered to start on our project
Now I can't get you off my mind

Just the way you walk makes me glad
The way you glare at me when you're mad
You're aggresiveness when I'm being bad
Or offering your hanky when I'm sad

I know we are both young
Nothing felt in your heart
But I've always wanted to ask
"Would you be my sweetheart?"

I will take you anywhere you want
The beach, movies, or even the mall
I'll do anything just for you
Just to make you hear my heart's call

I'll sacrifice myself for you
Doing everything while suffering
So I can finally hear you say
"You're love for me is so endearing"

All these years hath past, Time stood still
Longing for your adoration
Sparks inside me, started to feel
Fate collapsed, ends with dark notion

You being you, and me to me
Destiny interlocked by chance
Probably never meant to be
Friendship turning into romance

Strangers are we, is that true?
I've thought we're more than just mere friends
Mem'ries fade, turned into blue
Time is needed before heart mends

Delivering a final blow
Inside's sadness mixed with despair
Left a note that you had to go
Demented soul left for repair

I hope you can read this someday
And don't worry, I hold no grudge
Wishing happiness in your way
While I ate my Ice cream with fudge

Misunderstanding

Why are we arguing?
Why must we fight?
If we don't stop fighting,
All good things will be of lost sight

Why are we doing this?
Is it because of that girl?
And her unexpected air kiss?
Followed by giving her hair a 'lil twirl?

You know I have no intention
To give that girl some affection
All she wants is my attention
And probably some of your inhibition

And just like that, you are now mad
Probably now you hate me and feel sad
Or maybe you want to hurt me cuz I'm bad
Call me a r***** but at most I am glad

Glad not because you are angry
But instead, this feeling called "jealousy"
In my head, definition's "You love me"
I know it sounds crazy and silly

But to have this misunderstanding
I call it a blessing
That your love for me is withstanding
All things opposing with great outstanding

Please honey, do hear me out
I'll do anything (Including eating a pig's snout)
You know what was that all about
So please don't give me the roundabout

That I, Bryan, will love you forever
And keep you safe and hold you dear
Inside my heart you are the only one
Like a fairy enchanting me with your wand

But now that you're walking away
I do not know anything else to say
Or trying to find some way
Just for you to stop and stay

"I love you with all my heart
But now that we are apart
I still hope you are happy, anywhere you are now
Still wishing our fate was different somehow"

Special Gift

I can't go on now, what must I do?
Whenever I have problems, I always turn to you
But it seems that I never really appreciate you
For all the things I got, not even a thank you

First is strength, strength to go on
Purpose and perseverance is key
You've always been there, since I was born
Everything you've done is always for me

Next is manners, shall I not forget?
Being a good person and not a family's regret
Am I diligent, honest, and pure?
To make my friends' sometimes insecure?

After that would be courage
To face the tough realities
Amist all trials and tribulations
Even troubles and hard responsibilities

Another thing is love
Like the sky from up above
Seeing it's beauty is bliss
From your first crush to your last kiss

Trust is important for anyone to have
So make sure to not misuse it
Or else the feeling it gives when it's lost
is the same like a snake hath bit

To seek truth, knowledge is best
It is the best teacher I could ever had
For experience shall tell you the rest
Of the world, for the good and the bad

Realizing these things gave me an idea
That you are God's special gift to me
What have I done to deserve this?
Shalt being human must it be?

It does not matter how nor why
All to think about is here and now
But thank you for all that you've done
All you need to do is rest and take a bow

I appreciate every single thing
For the good laughs and emotional suffering
Now it's time to tell you "I got this....."
I'm definitely sure you are going to be missed

Friends...

Why am I feeling sad?
What is this that I have to feel?
Was it really that bad?
That you have to make this nightmare real?

What must I do? Forget you?
Or think of things to regret loving you?
How is it that you left me?
Even after I loved you sincerely?

Suddenly with friends I am feeling this
Tendancy to just always be hopeless
A former love, often missed
Still thinking of our last kiss

Then realizing, that I was driving
When my cuz noted that I missed my destination
Thus understanding, no need for sobbing
Getting lost is one way to have a realization

That to be happy, you don't need a lover
or a **** buddy nor a *** partner
all you need are close friends
and for sure your heart would mend

Listening to things you have to say
Being with you when you tend to go astray
Cheering you up when you feel dismay
Or doing karaoke with you on your bad day

But sometimes I wish, I was not born
Thinking what would have happen, not being the cause
Feeling that no one hath to mourn
Being the reason to give my family remorse

Another thing is disappointment
A feeling so cruel
Building up my rage inside
Acting like fuel

Add to that mistrust
A feeling so unjust
Gives you disgust
So definitely not a must

But one person enlightened me
Made me see the real deal
Along with some encouragement
with friends alongside a meal

Not to let myself falter
Is this what love is supposed to feel?
Has it been that long?
To make this emotion so surreal?

Now this shall be my guide
Whenever life kicks me in the b****
Or problems arise to bring me down
Like collectors annoying you with calls

To just remember: friends are here
Even when you're depressed or death is near
Trying to uplift your spirit up
Appreciate it even if they messed up

Now hopefully I can move on
And stop expressing this wasted emotion
on a girl with no such relation
still longing someone's affection

wow TRUST is ....... DEEP

last monday, i went to the movies to watch "Trust" starring Clive Owen and some supporting characters, portraying a family with a daughter who got sexually assaulted by an older man, which is common nowadays. For me tbh (to be honest), it's depressing to see that most movies that SHOULD be watched is not even on the hitlist for becoming one of the most viewed in the box office, i mean, i was literally the only one watching it. But on the upside, i liked the privacy. I like that i could concentrate on the essence of the movie, and the message that it implies. For me who actually got teary-eyed, it was a blessing that no one saw me in that light LOL :D

anyway i suggest that all teens watch this movie DEFINITELY not to ruin your idea about the internet but to actually beware that not all things are what they seem. and also to be aware of what's happening out there atm, in which right now in this era we live in. IT IS NOT SAFE O_O