Alone...

Today, after coming home from work....
Feeling empty and incomplete be
Tried to reach out a bunch of times, but to no use
Slowly, steadily, sadness creeps inside me

What else must happen?
Fill this void with cold shivering air?
Whilst walking alongside veteran's park
Feeling demented and despair...

There is no one, no, wait, I am alone
But a lot of people looking at me like what the ****
Thinking when will this darkness of mine end...
To no avail, realizing there was no luck

Desperately seeking, i walked past by the eyes
Of the judgmental teens creeping me within
Found out after walking this long-winding path
There is no hope in this world we living in

Churning through my soul, shadows of my past
Began to ponder, eyes started to rain
Ever wonder what have you been searching for?
To take away the problems that cause you pain?

Looking back. saw trees and grass and strangers alike
Turning around, headed for nowhere
But to understand that no one can help you
Experiencing finally, life isn't fair

Why am i depressed, you may ask..
There's alot of things going on in my head
Like for instance, felt the remorse for a dear friend's loss
Or lacking romance, a lifetime's worst mend

Clenching fists as I slammed the ground
Neighbors looking at me asking "What's his problem?"
Didn't pay them no mind, continued walking
Imagining what's beyond post-mortem

But after reaching my car, made it around the park
Lasted no more than what I've expected
Went to the church, got inside the chapel
Prayed for things i should have repented
Then finally, asking for help
Stating "Give me a sign" if I'm ready for love
Then, three girls came inside, in succession
Looks like a gift from up above

Thus, my everlasting devotion to the one on top
Oversees everything our heart's desire
Guides you to the path leading to salvation
Doing must we can, before the last retire

Then again, I am but not alone
Walking along his footsteps, I push forward
Vented with nature, and the breeze blown away
Eyes fixated at me, maketh thyself felt awkward

To those of you who tried and failed
May i suggest just have enough faith
For he listens to everything we need
Just have patience and it'll come for those who wait