Ideals

Some time long ago, there was this fairie
Who used to call me all the time
Whenever she was bored or alone
Or whenever she wants to have a pasttime

I was just being myself, being a loner
Who's used to being entertained by me
Then came her, summoned me be
Never knew my time would never be free

When we hangout, we always eat out
To be honest, that's the only reason for me to eat
She calls me to come pick her up, or them
That was the only reason for us to meet

Now to come to think of it, she never seemed to ask me
To just linger with her and just hang out like teens
Basically to be seen with a dollar symbol in the head
Just so they can eat, food accessible to her needs

I was trying to figure out a way
To be able to cope up with this
What do I mean? It's only food right?
Well, to be frank, it's her that I truly miss

What happened? You may ask that
Well, i admitted to her that she was the one
My "fairie" whom opened up my inner emotions
And made me feel like a better man

You see, just by making her smile
And all the other things like going to the beach
Made me realize that I do have a purpose in life
And somehow her hands were outstretched for me to reach

But then again, all of that vanished
Due to the fact I scared her away
Why? Well for starters, She's to no avail
Was not intending for her heart to be swayed

And of course the fact that she was a kid
Her heart that belongs to a boy
And he's a friend, no intention to do harm
Not trying to play with her, she's not a toy

All I wanted is for her to be happy
Even if I stayed away and avoid her
But sometimes, whenever she contacts me
I still feel I want to be there

By her side, always willing to help
Even though I know I am just a friend
Sometimes I wish i can find the right lady
Whom will help my heart mend

Well, that's all I got at this time
My feelings for her will sure sublime
But let's hope by the time I recover
When she calls me again, it would not be like this all over